Beyond the Grasp of Control

So there you are, feeling pleased about the choices you've made to get everything right where you want them. It's just then that you realize things aren't quite the way that you think they are. Left and right things are crumbling and that feeling of order and control are not even real anymore. You pinch yourself to make sure that the new, realized state of reality, is in fact not a hallucination but merely reality displaying itself in a sick and perverse way. You try and clarify all that has happened and decide........it's more intense than you originally thought.

Time Freeze!! -or- Too Busy [Hmmm.]

Welcome Back!!

It's been a bit of time since my last posting....school and work have my full attention. Recently in the last week, I have hung up the towel with work and decided to focus more on school. School has been very rough with a full year of chemistry in 9 weeks. I usually don't complain about school, but this class has proven to be very overwhelming. Let's just say I forgot it was August or any month for that matter. I walked into Target the other day and saw the "back to school" advertisments and was perplexed thinking to myself, "why do they have all that stuff up so early." I guess I've been in my own world all summer. Oy. The good news is that there is only two weeks remaining....and then it's off to Hawaii for 1 week. That should be fun in itself. Yippee!!

The taste of cold brew seems to be a familiar taste on my unsocialized lips over the past few months. Every evening, by evening I mean 1 am, I fight the urge to unwind with a cold "Broken Halo, by Widmer" but I fall victim everytime. That cool, crisp, hoppy goodness pleasures my every desire without failure.

I hope everyone has had a great summer so far. Some new additions to my blogspot will be up an coming....so watch closely for the fun and exciting changes!!!

Quote of the Day

"If you ever find yourself face to face with an Aardvark in the middle of a field, remind yourself to not look directly into their eyes. The don't like it." ----source unknown

With the wind in my sail...

Another term at PSU has started and the balance of work/school seems to be perfect. After a term that was completely disastrous, this term promises to be substantially better. After this term I will be on schedule for Med School '09, with the MCAT next spring. I'm sure it will come very quickly as my summer plans have changed from basking in the sun, to a full year of chemistry in a few weeks. If accomplished my plan will be in place...eliciting much study time and little room for social events. I guess when it's time to get serious, you must step up and get on it.


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Reminder:
Always wear your helmet...and if you do wear it, make sure it's on properly. **Don't be that guy!**

For the moments I feel faint...

Have you ever had that day that seems to go on and on? The day turns into days which turns into weeks. Soon you feel yourself slipping into the dreaded repetition, which most call a "routine." After much deliberation, you have decided that however you got there, your routine sucks and it is bringing you closer to a path that directs you further and further away from you carreer goals.


Well, I am proud to say...I'm not THAT GUY.







Are you THAT GUY?
















I hope not. So right now make a vow to yourself and only yourself, that you will not be THAT GUY.

Oh yeah, if you forgot who THAT GUY looks like, here he is:
















Quote of the Day:



"Only you can prevent Wildfires."

--Smokey the Bear





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Halloween Fun

Halloween

Happy Halloween! In Portland we say, "Happy Hallow's Eve, Bitches!" Seriously. The halloween spirit has started all over the Northwest. It's been very exciting...mainly because of the candy corn. Man, that darn candy corn and candy pumpkins get me every time. Frick. Frick on a stick!!




Saturday is the big Halloween bash, which is guaranteed fun. Still, I haven't decided what I want to be for Halloween. There's just so many options. Geez. I think part of the reason I haven't figured out what I want to be, is the fact that I have been so dang busy all week that I haven't but a chance to think about it atall. I think I may be turning into a work-a-hollic, or just needy of money. Not sure which one yet.

Last Saturday marked the start of the Halloween activities, with the pumpkin carving celebration. It was oodles of fun. We got some wine-in-a-box, pumpkins, and a box full of smiles. Christie got the biggest pumpkin, I think it weighed 30 lbs.

It all started with the opening of the boxed wine. On the box it said, "1 box of wine =4 bottles of wine." We didn't believe it, of course. So we bought it. Next came the carving, which was quite a fun event. We all decided to keep the seeds, so removing the pumpkin guts was very time consuming.






None-the-less we all finished the pumpkin autopsies, and continued with the carving. All of us chose a different design, each with unique and exciting personality. Total carve time for my pumpkin total 2 1/2 hours, while most carve time was 1 1/2. I guess I am too maticulous.



Anyhoo, we lit them up with bike flashy red lights and stood back to appreciate the beauty.




Look at all the beauty!!!

















Quote of the day:

"Love only those that love you, cry when no one can see, and make chocolate chip pancakes often."


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That's sweet love!

Outside. Where's outside?

So today while I was in my regular routine of work, I had a breif thought. I was thinking about how I never go outside except for when I go from my car to the bus and from the bus to the Clinic. Then on the way home I do the same. This is quite sad. Last year this time, I was riding to work and school and riding my cross bike every chance I could get. Races on the weekends were my regular routine and I loved it. Things have changed dramatically now, but there is no excuse for not being outside.

I have decided to break the pattern and dedicate my spare time to the outdoors. Don't get me wrong, I have about 2 hours of spare time a day, the difference is I have decided to use them. On Saturday I am looking at a bike that I may purchase to start commuting on and riding on the weekends. It will be good fun. The test ride is scheduled early on Saturday, which shortly there after I will be trail running and hiking. Yipee.

So there, it's in writting and now I have to do it. Have you ever noticed that when you fall into a bad routine, that it is the hardest thing to break. Everyday it eats at you and slowly it consumes your life. Interesting stuff sometimes. At the same time, once you start a good routine, everyday you are positively reenforced with all the hopes and accomplishment made and yet to make.

When you are frustrated with the situation, change it. Don't continue to live in your self created misery.

Quote of the Day:

"Don't worry about the things you can't change, change what you worry about."

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And the Pendulum swings.....

This morning started off with a nice greating of a warm shower, followed by some fresh store bought eggs with Tillamook cheese. Fortunate for me, my favorite shirt was ready to be worn with my choice pair of slacks and so on. It was forecasting a nice day. Well, today I rode the TriMet(bus) all the way, (normally I drive to a Park n Ride and then catch a bus), and it was an interesting experience. I had my Joe with me and my other new best friend, Kitty-my MCAT study guide. So Joe, Kitty, and I started our journey into a day that seemed to be very managable.



The bus ride turned out to be very productful, in which I got through a good section of Kitty. I guess right now I'll call her Kitten because she's so new to me and I don't know her too well. After an hour of bus study time, I gathered myself and moved to the Starbucks lounge to continue my study session. I finished my session with just enough time to walk down to CEI(Casey Eye Institute) and formally great what was in store for me, today.



Today was a clinic day for the doctor that I work for which was prepped the night before. Well as if to say "Good Morning, " Chaos greeted me with missing charts and busy phone lines. The office has been a bit crazy with some staff out for leave of absence and illness. Continuing to push through the fallen wall of bricks, I attempted to accomplish the tasks of the day. Wednesday's satellite clinic did not get completely pulled until 5pm on the dot with an exhausting and endless effort to accomplish the task far sooner.

To say the least, what started out as a fresh day of possibility, quickly turned into a scatter of disorganization with the least bit of control orientation. Thus can be true and applicable to many situtations.

Tomarrows a new day...and personally, I hope it starts bad so it will get better and better all day. Remember, the day is what you make it, not what the day makes you.

Quote of the Day:
"Trust me, Frank knows."

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